today

i jogged! with kidd and eugene. gotta say though, enjoyed it a lot! partially because i enjoy a moderate workout and the sweating part. okay the sweating part applies only when i enter the air-conditioned prayer house. shall not explain the physics behind it because i did, on my physics P2 today. on a more serious note, we should really exercise like this once a week. lazy bones here don't exercise much!!! :p

OH YEAH TODAY WAS MY LAST PAPER! HAD PHY P2 AND SCI MCQ. gotta say though, sci mcq was quite a killer, especially the chemistry part. it was challenging, very brain-tickling!!!!! hahahaha and i made a lot of mistakes for my physics paper and just for laughs, i spelt "rarefaction" as "rarefRaction." and i wasn't the only one!!!! lol!!!

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i did Acts 27 today for qt.

Acts 27:18-19 "We took such a violent battering from the storm that the next day they began to throw the cargo overboard. 19On the third day, they threw the ship's tackle overboard with their own hands. 20When neither sun nor stars appeared for many days and the storm continued raging, we finally gave up all hope of being saved." it sucks sometimes when you get hit hard. and you just give up hope. you end up hopeless. you don't even know what to hope for because everything seems so dreary, so bleak. and we'll probably dump away some important stuff just to save ourselves. like what, our relationship with God?

Acts 27: 29-30 "Fearing that we would be dashed against the rocks, they dropped four anchors from the stern and prayed for daylight. In an attempt to escape from the ship, the sailors let the lifeboat down into the sea, pretending they were going to lower some anchors from the bow."

yeah. i think sometimes i hate myself when i realize i'm dry and empty and i start pretending that everything is alright or just pretend that the dryness doesn't exists. but soon the arid and desolate desert will get to me. and that was what happened! sometimes you end up empty and parched that you just don't know what to do. as in, you just don't know how to solve this problem!!! no, there ain't any reason for me to pretend no matter how desperate i am to save myself or just make myself feel better.

this desert phases are probably so common and inevitable. and they are probably the things God uses to mold our character. James 1:3-4 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

btw, paul seemed to sound very exasperated in Romans 3:4 "What if some did not have faith? Will their lack of faith nullify God's faithfulness? 4Not at all!" it doesn't matter that much for us to have faith because God's still faithful. okay, it's important to have faith but if we feel guilty coz we lack it, then that's being legalistic which is wrong. God's faithfulness reaches to the sky. so great!!!

2 Corinthians 4:8-9 "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed"

my Heavenly Father is truly a faithful God!!