Tuesday, September 30, 2008

helloesx, i'm here again.


anyway, these past 2 fays were horrible. i totally lost my aim for studying because i just couldn't figure out what am i studying so hard for and why must i study my guts out because i don't think i'm studying for God but am studying for myself, for my folks. and it's freaky to know how tired you are after that because all this while your eyes were fixed on the wrong place.

it's true. trouble indeed came. and sometimes i just don't know what to do and it seems as though God's so far far away. what i did still haunts me at times. mistakes, errors, wrong this, wrong that. argh!!!!! it's just so bad!!!

and then, i was doing my qt and thanking God for her when she called me. and she till felt the same!!!!! she too, also wondered what is she studying so hard for!!!! man, we are tired people. tired of studying, tired of studying for the wrong motives. and i was just crying over the phone telling her over the phone to just "give your best" because there're times when i don't and even if i did, it's with wrong intent and these few days seem so oppressive. i felt as though God's far and God doesn't love me anymore.

hahahaha!!!!! :DD

Saturday, September 27, 2008

sellgluup covenant


but what i know now is that cellgroup is family and we can be open, honest and share anything without being judged and people will still accept us for who we are!!!!!!! family man!!!! :D

Tuesday, September 23, 2008


*at outram mrt*
zoe:it looks weird..
yining: you mean the train or the movie[i was just talking to her about money not enough 2]
zoe: the train.

and when we were onboard the train and i heard that guy in that same ol' voice saying "next station, tanjong pagar." i then finally realized it IS weird so i tried do some thinking and re-routing when i realized, to my huge horror and exasperation, WE WERE ON THE WRONG TRAIN!!!!!!!!! i don't know how does my mind works but my faculties told me that the train going to pasir ris goes to redhill BUT IT DOESN'T. AHH!!!!!!

it's amazing, how acute lil' kids can be. and she thinks the train is weird. i think i'm weird.

Saturday, September 20, 2008

in front of the com screen at 12:23AM. naughty boy, yining!!!

some things i really like to do:

1) jogging. i rmb i used to jog alone a lot last time. and i suspect that jogging offers no help in improving my stamina. i still feel breathless. easily. old liao la!!! but i really like jogging with other people like kidkid or qianyi, hahaha!!!!
2) guitar. seriously man!!! it's just so good to learn how to play a new song or a new strumming method or something new!!!! i've got loads to learn after O's!!! :D
4) basketball. and that's first stop after O's!!!!!! :D
5) eat. you know, i may not possess a voracious appetite but i still like to eat good food. and good or not, just eat. HAHAHAHHA. like.. BA KU TEH?[HINT HINT. HAHAHA!!!!!]
6) PLAY FRISBEE. YEAH, VERY FUN!!!!!!! and it's really a relief and an amazement that frisbee ain't just flinging a mini UFO.

okay, i just wanna blog coz i don't wanna sleep early. and i've brushed my teeth already and i don't wanna eat. gotta brush those yellowing teeth walls again if i do anyway. :(

Thursday, September 18, 2008

i'm really so sorry for da lack of updates, yo.

zhong hua and his fan club. no kidding. :D

one thing that really scares me is the sucking of those bubble tea "bubbles." it's not something i dare to do, sucking those "bubbles" at full speed. it whizzes up the straw with a "poop" sound and woosh, it goes down your throat so quickly, it gets stuck there. then you suffocate and die. HAHAHAHA.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

why do i

"..Why do i think that he wouldn't want to hear about my problems?
Why do i think he is too busy for me?"
Why do I think he's tired of hearing the same old stuff?
Why do i think he consults his list when i ask for forgiveness and asks, "Don't you think you're going to the well a few too many times on this one?
Why do i think i have to speak a holy language around him that i don't speak with anyone else?
Why do i think he won't do in a heartbeat to the Father of Lies what i thought about doing to the fathers of those bullies on the bus?.." taken from The Applause of Heaven by Max Lucardo

God is love man!!!! my God's all about love!!!!

anyway, i'll post my results only after i gotten them all. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!! don't wanna spoil the fun!!! God's good, God's very faithful!!!!

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

shadow of your wings

"Have mercy on me, O God, have mercy on me, for in you my soul takes refuge. I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings until the disaster has passed." Psalm 57:1-3

"Because you are my help, I sing in the shadow of your wings.
8 My soul clings to you; your right hand upholds me." Psalm 63:7-8

David sang out Psalm 57:1-3 when he was at that cave. when everybody was against him. when he realized he had no where to go. it's so strange that God is most approachable, most real when you're most vulnerable. and sometimes life just goes so far where you just feel so crushed, so defeated, so lousy.

God is very good, very merciful.

anyway, i've been having LOADS of fun at prayer house!!! i took a video yesterday and i'm gonna post it when i have time!!! :D :D :D