Friday, August 29, 2008

relationships and love

Luke 22: 50-51" When Jesus' followers saw what was going to happen, they said, "Lord, should we strike with our swords?" 50And one of them struck the servant of the high priest, cutting off his right ear.
51But Jesus answered, "No more of this!"

and that was what ps preston shared about during radical conference. i sure have cut off many ears, hahahaha!!!! :p and that's what Jesus will probably say to all the broken relationships in my life[usually broken by me].

"no more, yining!!!"

ahh! it sucks to the core when you have broken relationships and you're the reason of the crumbling of it!!!! i guess john was really right when he said that those who do not love do not know God because God is love.

my God sure is a love of God:

Zeph 3:17 "The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing."

it's so hard to imagine God as a God who's always cheerin' you on and quieting you with his so awesome love!!! 1 john 1:9 tells us that if we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness!!!! where can we find sucha faithful God who forgives!!! i was just singing "East to West" by Casting Crowns once and suddenly when i sang this part and it hit me hard:

"Cos you know just how far the east is from the west, from one scarred hand to the other."

true ain't it!!!! man, i pray that God give me love, compassion and sensitivity!!!

Thursday, August 28, 2008


i jogged! with kidd and eugene. gotta say though, enjoyed it a lot! partially because i enjoy a moderate workout and the sweating part. okay the sweating part applies only when i enter the air-conditioned prayer house. shall not explain the physics behind it because i did, on my physics P2 today. on a more serious note, we should really exercise like this once a week. lazy bones here don't exercise much!!! :p

OH YEAH TODAY WAS MY LAST PAPER! HAD PHY P2 AND SCI MCQ. gotta say though, sci mcq was quite a killer, especially the chemistry part. it was challenging, very brain-tickling!!!!! hahahaha and i made a lot of mistakes for my physics paper and just for laughs, i spelt "rarefaction" as "rarefRaction." and i wasn't the only one!!!! lol!!!


i did Acts 27 today for qt.

Acts 27:18-19 "We took such a violent battering from the storm that the next day they began to throw the cargo overboard. 19On the third day, they threw the ship's tackle overboard with their own hands. 20When neither sun nor stars appeared for many days and the storm continued raging, we finally gave up all hope of being saved." it sucks sometimes when you get hit hard. and you just give up hope. you end up hopeless. you don't even know what to hope for because everything seems so dreary, so bleak. and we'll probably dump away some important stuff just to save ourselves. like what, our relationship with God?

Acts 27: 29-30 "Fearing that we would be dashed against the rocks, they dropped four anchors from the stern and prayed for daylight. In an attempt to escape from the ship, the sailors let the lifeboat down into the sea, pretending they were going to lower some anchors from the bow."

yeah. i think sometimes i hate myself when i realize i'm dry and empty and i start pretending that everything is alright or just pretend that the dryness doesn't exists. but soon the arid and desolate desert will get to me. and that was what happened! sometimes you end up empty and parched that you just don't know what to do. as in, you just don't know how to solve this problem!!! no, there ain't any reason for me to pretend no matter how desperate i am to save myself or just make myself feel better.

this desert phases are probably so common and inevitable. and they are probably the things God uses to mold our character. James 1:3-4 "Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything."

btw, paul seemed to sound very exasperated in Romans 3:4 "What if some did not have faith? Will their lack of faith nullify God's faithfulness? 4Not at all!" it doesn't matter that much for us to have faith because God's still faithful. okay, it's important to have faith but if we feel guilty coz we lack it, then that's being legalistic which is wrong. God's faithfulness reaches to the sky. so great!!!

2 Corinthians 4:8-9 "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed"

my Heavenly Father is truly a faithful God!!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

"Not to us O Lord, not to us but to Your name be the glory for Your love and faithfulness."

thank God for..

1)good study mates who're in JC so when i've qns, i can bug them. HAHAHA!!!! :D
2)FUN study mates because my study mates aren't people who refuse to smile and constantly stare at their books 24/7.
3)encouraging study mates. for people who give encouragement cards and pray for me.

anyway, yesterday i was studying physics when suddenly i realized i couldn't go on anymore. and i couldn't bear to take a look at my chem notes despite having a mcq today, it's as though my eyes have got an aversion to notes. then i've got this sms.

"last paper already.. glorify God ya!"

and it smacked me in my face so i chiong all the way when to my horror, i realized if i didn't read my notes, my memory wouldn't be refreshed and i would have forgotten many stuff. whew!!!

Lifesong by Casting Crowns

Empty Hands held high
Such Small sacrifice
If not joined with my life
I sing in vain tonight

May the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to you
Let my lifesong sing to You
Let my lifesong sing to You
I want to sign your name
to the end of this day
Knowing that my heart was true
Let my lifesong sing to You

LORD, I give my life
A Living sacrifice
To reach a world in need
To be your hands and feet

So may the words I say
And the things I do
Make my lifesong sing
Bring a smile to You


Hallelujah, Hallelujah,
Let my lifesong sing to You

Sunday, August 24, 2008

on the bus!!

nat, shawn, youzhao and i made some promises to each other. though it may sound stupid for some, gotta say that it's really awesome! i ain't gonna post what they promised! but here is mine!

"if it's God's will and i become a youth pastor, i'll buy you all drinks!!!"

HAHAHAHA!!!!! i guess i can't make promises like splitting up money if i win 4D[like what nat said] because i may just hide all the dough and not share. NO KIDDING. HAHAHAHA I PRAY GOD GIVE ME A HEART TO SHARE.

anyway, i had a VERY good and productive time studying!!!! really awesome because i was doing chem. i must really say this. you'll enjoy studying if you enjoy the subject. don't enjoy the subject, too bad la! just pray then!!!! hahaha!!!! i enjoyed spending time with junze, kidd, shawn, youzhao, grace, karyn and gracia. eh BTW i went for baptism today and sangeetha was baptized!!!! i was so excited for her, as though i myself was getting baptized!! but sangeetha sure is a warrior in Christ!!! oh i went for Bible study too!!! ps daniel talked about knowing your Bible and i gotta say that i DO-NOT know my Bible very well. :P


it's good to be set free. it's good to have deep friendships. it's good as compared to having illusionary infatuations. and God sure is good and gracious!!!! tmr's chem paper!!!! i pray i'll have fun doing it!!!! :D :D :D

Friday, August 22, 2008

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

exams and prayerhouse

ahh my history exam was quite alright! i doubt i'll do EXTREMELY well though!!!! but the essay was awesome because qn was God-given!!!! muwahahahha thank God!!! :D

AND MY ORAL WAS REALLY HORRIBLE!!!! hahahaha i was so nervous and disorganized with my thoughts!!! but i sure had fun!!! and God really answered my prayer of giving me nice and friendly examiners!!! eh my chinese oral examiners were very stern!!!!! horrible!!! hahahahha!! but i guess my examiners were alright!!! :D

some of the latest jokes:

gracia: anyone wants chocolate chip cookies?

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!! funny right!!!!

gracia: the crumbs are all over the place!!!

HHAHAHAHA!!!! seriously!!!!


ahh ps preston shared this verse!

"God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble."

yeah amen!!!!! sometimes life deals us so hard but God's still good!!!! yeah!!! and and and i had awesome fellowship time yesterday!!!! it's awesome to know that people go through the same stuff as you!!! no temptation has seized you except what's common to men, indeed!!!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

what a way to enjoy life

eating durian and b&j(that strawberry cheesecake flavour thingy) before blogging!!! :D :D :D

i've been having a lot of fun in prayer house nowadays. mmm. sangeetha, qianyi and liyuan were helping me with my oral. OKAY NO LIYUAN WAS JUST THERE LAUGHING AT ME.

yining: how do you pronounce f-i-l-m?
sangeetha: *pronounced it correctly*
yining: is it fer-lerm?

and everyone burst into laughter!!! hahaha!!!

yining: fer-fer.. AIYA FARM?!

and everybody burst into laughter again!!!!!

and we had good time laughing at jokes. seriously man!!! so difficult to come up with a good joke!!! :( :( :( and sangeetha has so many of them!!!!! she's the joke machine!!!

okay i've got history exam and oral!!! and i pray that i'll be able to have fun talking to the examiner and doing my hist paper!!! seriously, i'm VERY unproductive today. but ah! pass, praise God. fail, praise God. A1, praise God. amen? :D :D


it is true. the times when you're lonely are really the times you can spend time with God. when God is most real, probably most approachable. sometimes my mind and heart drives me mad. but God's still very good. now i know God is in control, i have nothing to worry about tmr's exam. and i have nothing to be proud of. rmb yining!!! you ain't any big shot and you don't need to score straight A's or be the holiest person for God to love you!!!! now, that's a huge reminder i gotta remind myself!!!

Monday, August 18, 2008

Phil 3:14

someone sent me this sms:

"Yining can do all things through Christ who strengthens him."

amen!!!!! thank God for people who care by encouraging!!!! thank God!!!

Sunday, August 17, 2008

table tennis!!!!!

LOL!!!!!! i didn't know that i was named after the world's no.1 table tennis player!!! i MUST say, i had fun watching it at home with my folks!!! and i really enjoyed those moments that i see the players on the verge of giggling or laughing because they know they're winning!!!! seriously man!!!

so i guess this is what process is about:
"Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." James 1:4

and and and!

"..give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name."

Thursday, August 14, 2008

another quick post

hi i'm kinda rushing out lunch and typing this so gonna make it quick :D

i just finished my science practical. it was really disastrous!!!!! hahahaha but i kinda had fun doing it!!!! like the napthalene was stuck in the glass tube coz it's frozen and i tried to be helpful by digging the napthalene out but the glass rod broke instead. HAHAHAHAHA!!!!! but on a solemn note, i would have failed miserably if this was real O's. but STILL, it's worth many laughs!

oh yeah! i had my SS paper!!! and i had fun doing it too!!! there were 3 essays and.. and the first one was on SRI LANKA. and that sure is a God-given question!!!!! God sure is good and funny!!! i studied everything except venice just in case and i know of people who studied only sri lanka and it was spot on!!!! but sometimes it really reminds me of how God works. God don't look for people who are just hardworking. God looks for people who depend on Him and ridiculous as it may sound, serving cellgroup or ministry the day before, God still honours those who honours Him!! really awesome testimony and my friend have a lot to thank God for!!! :P :D


quick post

ytd when i was walking the bridge holding a plastic bag with a 1.5l bottled water inside, the plastic bag gave way and THE BOTTLE ROLLED DOWN THE BRIDGE AND FELL 4 STORIES HIGH. and THANK GOD there was no one below if not my next destination will be Changi Prison and not poly. HAHAHAHAHA. and amazingly(like what liyuan kept harping on), it DID NOT RUPTURE. the bottle was not really unscathed though. had a couple of scratches and a bent tip.

things to thank God for!

1) zhonghua who sent me a prayer sms. it's awesome when someone prays for you.
2) God's grace because this week was tough. very.
3) the auntie who gave me more rice than usual when i went and eat cai fan!
4) OH YEAH. i came up with the FDEL for the ASEAN and deterrence chapter. how cool is that!!!!
5) my history test which i got a 33/50 for it!!! I never scored anything above 30 or hit 30 for that matter!!! i guess God's just so good!!! fyi, i ain't a virtuoso in combined humanities as well. i am truly someone undeserving.
6) i've learnt how to choose good apples now!!!! :D :D :D :D
7) i got to know more people, eg. gracia and spent time with people too, eg. jingwei!! :D :D :D

my history test marks really showed that it doesn't matter how badly i do because God is still good!!! fail or pass, just try my best la!!!

thank God for God's amazing love and forgiveness when i needed it, grace when i needed to extend it.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008


whew!!!! it's so good to have accountability partners who will share your burden and just listen!!

Monday, August 11, 2008


it feels like my home because i don't mind going around barefooted!!!! here's the usual routine:

1)jian le will usually come first with his guitar. and you know the equation. jianle+yining+guitar=play. HAHAHAHAHA. no la that's a lie. jian le don't need me to sing along with him. :( NO I'M KIDDING AS WELL. HAHAHAHA.
2)then other people will trot inside.
3)and i'll ask them what's the password from the inside.
4)so the password is that they gotta say something nice about me!
5)then we start studying, starting out productively
6)then after an hour or two, i start losing concentration and we either talk lots of rubbish or play guitar!!!
7)then in the afternoon, we'll go beauty world eat! yesterday was that teochew mui thingy!!!!
8)the whole cycle repeats itself

anyway, i have fun picking apples with zhonghua, seeing zhonghua running towards me with a flower windmill[and i'm holding a flower], playing guitar[ALI TAUGHT ME NEW STRUMMING METHOD AND MELLIMOO TAUGHT ME ENDLESSLY], talking about brendan's indian dancing moves and.. studying. i also like the times i go back home with nat on 67 coz that's really fellowshipping time!! NO I DON'T ENJOY STUDYING. okay la i enjoy it when i do it with my friends. :D :D :D

i think i'll be going to prayer house everyday. i really enjoy it overthere!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Ps Preston:

you know, you don't have to accomplish or do anything, Jesus loves you whether your life is messed up or not. whether you tried your best or not.

ya guys know what? sometimes i'm so sick and tired of making the same mistakes over and over again. haha!!! i was just listening to the sermon cd i bought the day before and i was reminded that processes are important for change.

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

God's awesome promises

1Now when he saw the crowds, he went up on a mountainside and sat down. His disciples came to him, 2and he began to teach them saying: 3"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. 4Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. 5Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth. 6Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled. 7Blessed are the merciful, for they will be shown mercy. 8Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. 9Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God. 10Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
11"Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. 12Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you

i went to church to study today!!!! [come, pat my head and sayang me. LOL!!!!!!] okay la it wasn't very productive in the beginning since i was so excited to see that my beloved cellmates[jian, wayne, hongs] owned the place. pawnage plx!!!! and jian bought his guitar and it's awesome because I SAW HIS DOUBLE AND TRIPPLE STRUMMING. CRAZY I TELL YOU!!!!! God's really blessed jian a lot in his guitar skills. seriously!!! i still remember those times when jianle was still plucking "More than Words." LOL!!! but i had good time with my own cellmates. oh btw, liyuan and jingwei joined us!!! LOL! it's so good to have company!!!

i reached home at 11:30PM and my mum wasn't very pleased. dead worried i guess.

Mom: you don't need to study until like this one! i don't need you to get all A's, i just want you to get into poly blah blah blah blah..

yeah. i want to get into poly too. and i'm not studying for all A's. okay la to a certain extent i am. i'm just trying to scrape a good pass for english. how i wish that on the spot, i could just tell her this:

"yours truly may not even be able to go poly because there're good prospects that he'll flunk english."

ah. it really hurts because i don't wanna say that to my mum. my mom after all DID frowned when she knew about my mids results which in my opinion was God's grace to me.

"He will have no fear of bad news; his heart is steadfast, trusting in the LORD." Psalm 112:7

yeah!!! no fear!!! my prayer is that God'll remind me that either i pass or fail, God is forever glorified. work for food that don't spoil!!!!!

Sunday, August 3, 2008


because it's 12:19AM!! just came back from F.O.P and seriously, hahahaha!!! worth it!!! so worth it!! i had real good fun k!! like i had a lot of nice shots flying over a dustbin[HONGS WHERE ARE THE PICS!!!!!!!!] and had good fun playing arcade basketball. we[estehr and i] lost dearly to the hongs team[hongs and jane]. ahh. but really!!! and i really enjoyed myself at F.O.P. it was good time of p&w!!!! and the sermon was really good, hahahah since it's SO APPLICABLE!! aiya i feeling very lazy to post what God spoke to me through sermon about. skip it k!!


kay. back to sermon yesterday. okay technically it's the day before. TELL YOU, IT WAS A BLAST. i really enjoyed the new structure because i get to stretch my legs out like some hawker. really shiok!!! but best of all, God really offered me awesome insights about girls and reminded me a lot of stuff. MEN of God, unite!!! hahahahaha!!!

a-MEN? yeah, amen!! note the emphasis. MEN.