Your will

nat and i went to estehr's house few days ago to play guitar and it so turns out that she pumped her ball so we played ball!

so while we're playing, there's this man who is a little slow in the mind, sitting down on the bench and fuming. and nat sat down beside him and asked him stuff, eg. what's your name, how old are you and stuff and why he's angry. so turns out that there's another basketball player who looks intimidating took half the court and he couldn't play[it's psychology. you don't wanna get thrashed or bullied]. so nat asked him this golden question which i think i didn't want to ask.

"would you like to play with us?"

i tell you what was going on in my heart. i didn't want to play with him. i didn't want him to spoil the chance of the 3 of us playing together. and when nat asked the question, all this reluctance turned into guilt and disgust. disgust because i was disgusted with myself.

because if Jesus was around, He would have asked the same question. and nat shared a verse with me which was powerful and godly when i shared with him how i felt:

"For Christ did not come for the righteous but for the sinners."

amen to that!!!!!!! and that's exactly one of God's will for us. a command. gotta love everyone. big or small, just gotta love.