yeah and sometimes i'll start wondering a lot of things and i just don't know what to do!!! and i was just begging for mercy when this popped up in my mind:
"My son, do not make light of the Lord's discipline, and do not lose heart when he rebukes you, 6because the Lord disciplines those he loves, and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son."
and i searched for my Bible and read on:
"Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. 11No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it."
it's just so hard to be convinced that God still loves me when i feel oppressed, when i feel like the whole world's falling down, when i feel the driest. until i realized God's discipline meant that He loves me!!!! and it's true that emotions are lousy leaders. blah!!!! anyway, i'm gonna speed up my breakfast and quickly rush to p.h!!!! :D :D :D
2 more weeks to O's!!!!! :D