i'm on the anvil

i borrowed this book called "On the Anvil" and it's really about God moulding you and stuff. and what did i got out from this book?

circumstances are there to reveal your true nature!

and that is what happened to me. what i found out was that i'm more than a short-tempered person.

-demanding
-always resorting to threats
-sarcastic
-unforgiving
-violent
-and God even reminded me that i'm someone who procrastinates the same way as he. if not even worse.

and you list it down yourself. the circumstance come, God's there to mould you based on what you are. never comfortable. i tell you, i need God's mercy but now i need to show the same mercy to others. others who're just so indescribable that shooting him won't be enough. i'm angry now. but God's very merciful. if i wanna forgive like a Jesus-freak and offer the same second chance that God offers, God's gonna make a way for me.

new wine after all can't be poured into old wineskins. i can't compromise God's truth. hahahaha!!!!

you know, God is an amazing God. i'm ready to forgive like a Jesus freak. oh yeah.

helmet of salvation

satan: woah, this people don't seem to like you. see, they're so cold to you!
me: *start making excuses for myself*
satan: you try to know them, they don't give a hoot about you. what for? your motives weren't even right!
me: *start making excuses for myself*
satan: you don't even know whether you're _____ or ______. which one are you?
me: *contemplating*
satan: what IS your identity?
me: i am a child of God.

that's the last thing satan wants me to say. he probably wants me to choose between ______ and ______. i have a third option. i'm a child of God. no, it's more than an option. it's the truth.

God, You're a good God who's love is unfailing.

O Lord, You searched me

"I will sing to the Lord for He has been good to me."

David is an awesome guy not just because he has a nice angmoh name or because he's king of israel last time but coz he's one radical man who loves God. what a huge difference, loving God's blessings and loving God Himself!

sing sing sing coz God's a good God.

the two officers picked up from shame

we don't need to stand in shame before God for our failures.

fun

my cell went iceskating. i understand that age is catching up on me. ahh old already, hahaha!!! :p

when i was praying before my qt, there was amazing peace in my heart. something i haven't felt for a long time. God's an awesome God. i wait in expectation that God'll open doors in my life. God placed in my mind some of the stuff to pray for.

God's my deepest love.

it's really all in the state of the mind. i struggled with my thoughts last time because i just think too much. who likes to stagnant spiritually? no one! applies for me too! but it's awesome when you know that nothing in this world can seperate you from the love of God. it's awesome when you sing a song when you're enjoying a hot shower. deepest love? God. deepest praise? to Jesus.

joy unspeakable and it won't go away, indeed! neither do i have to worry what tomorrow will bring. why bother? just sing! sing a praise song! get your hands on the guitar and just make music and worship! wow! God reminds me that some things have very simple solutions. it's just that we made it look so complicated and difficult.

i like to sing. i like guitar. my voice is awful. i'm not savvy with guitar as well. but who cares when blessing God's name is an awesome thing to do?

:p

there's this word that started with a letter "c" that has the same meaning as "debatable issues" yet i forgot what that word is. so i went to this person's blog[i remembered that this word was at the first post of the blog] and i was scrolling through when i came across this[sorry, i forgot what is it exactly]

failure is when you don't put in your best blah blah.. and you chiong your guts for God to see a smile on His face.

random right? because that's radicalove, pleasing to God.

PS: that word is "controversies." i've poor memory, sorry. :p

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no matter how bad i feel about myself. how ashamed i am. how badly i mess up..

God never forsakes me. but why am i still so drained? i don't want to plunge myself in self-pity. i don't want to give up on God. i want to at least PRAY. and so i did. i read Scripture. i read books. i still feel tired.